Yes, you read the headline correctly, addiction hits home here. I am a recovered addict and enjoy helping other addicts find God’s healing touch. Because of the blood of Jesus, I am recovered and NOT recovering.
I know this goes against many ideals behind addiction, but I can honestly say that I am recovered!
Addiction Hits Many We Do not Expect
I was raised in a Quaker home (maternal grandparents). My mother had my sister and me in dancing from the age of five and we enjoyed it. However, when I was incredibly young (age 11 or 12) I made the choice to turn to my father and live with him.
My father’s side of the family was Seventh Day Adventists (SDAs). Even though my dad’s family was SDA, he chose to be a biker… then, so did I, which meant that his rules did not fit my agenda.
I ran away during ninth grade (13) and lived on the streets for a while. My addiction got really bad, because it drowned out my pain from being abandoned and an outcast.
Addiction Knows No Boundaries
My maternal grandparents found me at my “boyfriend’s” house when I was 14 (my boyfriend was 33). He was a dealer, and I was heavily into drugs by this time.
There were no rules living on the streets, so my poor grandparents could not seem to tame me.
I was angry and felt unloved. The rest of my family did not want me near my grandparents anymore because I had become pretty mean by then.
My grandmother refused to let me go and prayed for me constantly.
Anyone Could Be Addicted
I finally felt some love by my grandparents, but it always felt a little too late.
My dad was an alcoholic and I watched him deteriorate right in front of me. He would get drunk, get angry, and go after whoever was present at the time.
I became the protector of my sister and brother (these two were half, but we did not use the half part). Then we all became addicted to something.
How Addiction Affects Families
Addiction ravages families and creates doubt, anger, and unforgiveness. It is difficult for family members to watch as the addict is killing themselves with drugs.
Families do not always understand this disease and believe that the addict chooses to be addicted. Maybe that first snort, or puff, or drink is a choice, but from then on, it is more than a choice, it becomes a festering disease.
How Recovery Worked for Me
Recovery was only attempted by me three times. Once to have my children, that only lasted for a few years. Once through a secular drug rehabilitation center, that did not work at all. And finally, after I was convicted of violating my probation and served some time, I found God in jail.
I know, I know, everyone finds Him there. I can honestly say that my arrest and conviction saved my life.
I found God because He was never hiding from me, I was hiding from Him.
7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
Matthew 7:7-8, NIV
He never left me, I left Him a long time earlier. However, since He never left me and never forsook me, all I had to do was turn around and look to Him again, and He was there.
6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”
7 Then Moses summoned Joshua and said to him in the presence of all Israel, “Be strong and courageous, for you must go with this people into the land that the Lord swore to their ancestors to give them, and you must divide it among them as their inheritance. 8 The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”
Deuteronomy 31:6-8, NIV
Even though these words were originally meant for Joshua, we know that we can rely upon Him always being there for us.
I started reading the bible again. I started relying on the Lord to find peace and joy. And when I left jail, I went to a Christian drug rehabilitation home.
The name of the home is the Walter Hoving Home (The Hoving Home now). This home is where my relationship with Christ flourished and now, I have changed from being addicted to drugs into being addicted to serving the Lord.
Serving His Flock
I am an ordained pastor. I went back to school at the age of 38 and am finishing up my PhD/Forensic Psychology to help addicts and psychopaths possibly change their ways.
I served as an addiction counselor for almost 13 years. I am currently working toward my Certification for coaching so that I can coach families of addicts and even addicts willing to obtain a coach.
I have written one book, Encouragement Takes Courage and am in the process of writing a series called Addiction (5 books). Addiction: Hope, Addiction: Recovery, Addiction: Family Recovery, Addiction: Society, Addiction and Psychopathy.
I am here to pray for anyone who knows someone who struggles with addiction, with addicts, their families, their friends, anyone needing prayer for anything really.
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Blessings and honor,
Christine C Sponsler of Sponsler Ink and Encouraging Circle of Life-Coaching